I've already made french toast and rice pudding this morning. I had about two bites of each, and ate cereal instead.
Today's prompt comes from singer-songwriter Maggie Rogers.
Prompt: In your deepest core, in your most vulnerable moments - what do you want?
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This question made me mad because I don't have a good answer. It's easier not to want things because then you can't be disappointed when you don't get them.
What I want is to be heard. Not just heard - listened to. Not interrupted. Not 'nodding while urging you to finish so it can be my turn to speak again.'
It's why I write. It's why I started doing stand-up. It's why I went to therapy. And why I stopped. Because even someone getting paid to listen couldn't stop staring at her phone.
In my interpersonal life, I'm usually the listener. It's rarely my turn to talk. I rush to get my words out before I'm interrupted. I assume I'm boring you. So I write. Because you don't get to interrupt me here. You can stop reading, but the words, nevertheless, persist.
I'm really working on it
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